Posted by: cynematic | June 28, 2009

Confessions

I’ve been away. Apologies, few-and-far-between blog readers.

Hiro Protagonist “graduated” from preschool, will officially be a kindergartner in the fall.

I’ve been writing elsewhere.

I’ve been tweeting elsewhere. (For real, my soul feels worn thin as a shard of bone–for two weeks straight I’ve tried to get word out about reformers’ protests in Iran over their strong feeling that their latest election was a sham. I’m not sure where this movement is going, or how much more I can contribute to it.)

I dislike much “women’s trade fiction.” Mary Higgins Clark? Why??

I’m thirsty for good news. I hope to have some soon.

I’d most like to curl up into a ball and hibernate from this non-stop feeling of exhaustion all the time. And yet I can’t. I need to throw myself out into the world over and over again.

So here I am. Discombobulated and scattered and dispirited. Nerve endings frayed. Restless and wretched.

I wish it were different.

I wish my son would like watching movies in the theatre. He says they’re too loud and overwhelming. He has a point. The other day I saw DRAG ME TO HELL (it wasn’t half as bad as I was tempted to crack that title equals the experience of going). I was tempted to half-plug my ears the whole time.

I’ve killed one strawberry and one tomato plant and many sugar snap pea seedings establishing my garden.

But we have 5 tomatoes on the vine, and many more passing from flower to fruit.

I’m tired. Tomorrow will be another day.


Responses

  1. I swear, whatever this malaise is, it’s contagious. Here’s to more energetic days just around the corner (fingers crossed).

  2. Some very interesting points raised here, which has got me thinking!

  3. It’s the headaches, which I never used to have before, but now seem to have all the time.


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